Turns my stomach


After a long time I opened the front page of the newspaper and remembered why I have stopped looking at the front page.

The violence and the extremeness of it made me want to throw up. What is it that drives people to take another life. I understand rage but to snuff away a life?!

Why are we becoming so violent? Or were we always this extreme and somehow it never turned into action? Is it as a society that we are going wrong somewhere? Or is it ‘expectations’ not getting fulfilled that leads us to such an action. Whatever it is, something is going wrong seriously and for most of us it has become a headline that we read in the paper or watch it getting sensationalised on trashy news channels.

We have become immune to violence. We read and move on. It is not happening to us or to anyone we know so why should we care. Even if we cared, what is it we can do?

I firmly believe that all of us move around with a facade that shows to the world how nice we are… but deep inside all of us, there is a monster just waiting to rear its head.

In the past perhaps we had a fear that our actions would lead to serious consequences for us. There perhaps used to be a voice of reason that helped us keep the monster firmly chained. But today, that voice of reason has been chained and the monster is on loose. The facade that we have, slips very quickly at the slightest provocation.

I think we all are bi polar and it is the other personality that is taking over. We use the facade to seduce people into doing what we want and when they don’t, hands around the neck, a battering ram, a knife, a bullet… it has become all too easy to listen to the ‘insane’ inside us.

The entire society needs a shrink for the psychological problems. Because that is what the problem really is… at a psychological level.

I have rage inside me. Whole lot of frustration. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever let the monster loose? Right now I know I will never let that happen but then… I have never felt an insane rage ever. How will I know how to react if that ever happens….

Humanity so vile


Not just events over the last couple of weeks but over a long period of time have been pointing to the fact that the so called most evolved of the species has never evolved.

Whether it is Sheena Bora case that has got media (and all those who were even remotely associated) orgasmic or the rape, road rage, murders, killings in the name of religion…they all are manifestations of the animal in all of us.

How are we evolved? Just because we have education and create these fancy tech gadgets and lead a lifestyle that is supposedly pegged at self actualisation on Maslow’s hierarchy doesn’t mean evolution. It just means there are more tools in our hands to continue with our primal nature. Our DNA is still of an animal and centuries away from the neanderthal man, we still retain that code.

Let’s face it. We are not human. Not one bit. We all live in a fool’s paradise and critique people who indulge in killings, murders, rape and pillage. Given an opportunity (and I will call it an opportunity because the animal within us is always looking for one), we react in the most violent way.

And this is not just about India. It is about Middle East. It is about Africa. It is about Europe and it is also about the the ‘holier than thou’ USA.

What makes a person take another person’s life? Psychologists have still not decoded this.

“Why men are willing to put their own lives in jeopardy to extinguish those of others has been puzzled over since Cain slew Abel. The theme of murder is used dozens of times each week by television script writers. It has inspired stacks of heavy tomes. Legal philosophers, sociologists, psychologists, psychiatrists have theorized endlessly. But the cause of murder still remains a considerable mystery. Students of murder can spot only the ostensible reasons for it – greed, jealousy, fear, revenge, or a sudden insane anger that seizes a person and, a moment later, blots out all memory of his deed.” – http://www.all-about-forensic-psychology.com

Till the time we keep deluding ourselves that we are different from animals, we will never be able to understand why we behave the way we do. Till that strand of DNA which leads to violence (provoked or unprovoked) is not identified and sliced out from all future generations, this will continue and no mater how much we supposed to be evolved, we will still be the species which wants to KILL.

http://documentarystorm.com/mind-of-a-murderer/ for whats its worth.